semoga pekan ini, akan baikbaik saja.
dan harihari selanjutnya, seterusnya *amin*

meski mungkin saya akan mengalami pengulanganpengulangan yang sama. yang saya ketahui, selama saya belum dapat mengambil pelajaran, akan terusterusan berulang.

karena mungkin, saya hanya harus keliru sejuta kali, dan benar sekali.
dan semoga segala sesuatunya akan membaik.

dan karena, saya harus belajar untuk sekali lagi berani.
dan karena, saya harus belajar untuk lebih banyak memahami dengan kepala saya, bukan hanya rasa saya.
dan karena, saya harus belajar untuk tetap mempercantik hati saya.
dan karena, saya harus belajar lebih banyak lagi disini.

dan karena, semi sudah menjelang.

hari ini saya seperti lagi mencairkan rasa tidak nyaman saya yang pada waktu lalu saya kristalkan dalam bentuk lupa, dengan prinsip nikmati saja.

dan tautau, ternyata melubernya kemanamanamanamana. bagai sungai panjangnya, dan muaranya di entah, apalagi hulunya. err, tidak seentah itu sih, muaranya jelas ke laut, tapi laut yang mana?

hanya mau meledak saja. tanpa permisi.

sepertinya ada yang salah pencet tombol deh. ato mungkin, ehm.. salah baca buku? mengingat saya tak banyak berinteraksi dengan orang beberapa hari belakangan ini. hanya membaca buku kayak orang ga ketemu buku bertahuntahun lamanya.

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hmm, sepertinya saya memang salah baca buku.
*nyari kambing hitam*

#sekalisekali pengen egois, dan menyalahkan semua perihal.
(edit to add, kayak selama ini kurang esgois sajah, beuh!)

cause everybody knows,
but nobody really knows

*john legend | everybody knows

On this day, you read something that moved you and made you realize there were no more fears to fear. No tears to cry. No head to hang in shame.

That every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that.

That everyone and everything lives on inside you. That that doesn’t make any of it any less real.

That soft touches will change you and stay with you longer than hard ones.

That being alone means you’re free. That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with.

That the tingles running down your arms are angel feathers and they whisper in your ear, constantly, if you choose to hear them.

That everything you want to happen, will happen, if you decide you want it enough. That every time you think a sad thought, you can think a happy one instead.

That you control that completely.

That the people who make you laugh are more beautiful than beautiful people. That you laugh more than you cry. That crying is good for you. That the people you hate wish you would stop and you do too.

That your friends are reflections of the best parts of you.

That you are more than the sum total of the things you know and how you react to them. That dancing is sometimes more important than listening to the music.

That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life are only remembered by you and no one else. That no one judges you when you walk into a room and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them.

That what you make and what you do with your time is more important than you’ll ever fathom and should be treated as such.

That the difference between a job and art is passion.

That neither defines who you are. That talking to strangers is how you make friends.

That bad days end but a smile can go around the world.

That life contradicts itself, constantly. That that’s why it’s worth living.

That the difference between pain and love is time. That love is only as real as you want it to be. That if you feel good, you look good but it doesn’t always work the other way around.

That the sun will rise each day and it’s up to you each day if you match it. That nothing matters up until this point.

That what you decide now, in this moment, will change the future. Forever.

That rain is beautiful.

And so are

YOU.

-pleasefindthis, the day you read this